[ She thinks of when Rey had been trying to understand what was happening, how Ilde had let her peer into the fabric of her relationships. The scavenger had seen Kylo Ren in that brief, vibrating, little vision but because it had been a vision of him quiet, soft, in need of humanity... she had not recognized him.
How was anyone meant to guess that there was a man underneath, one worth being loved? Not when he continued to show only teeth and hate.
This has all gotten terribly knotted terribly quickly, and Ilde's immense loneliness starts to hum, like the sound a deep cavern makes with the wind whispering through it. Anakin is dead. Angel is asleep. Ren is distant, threatening everyone who comes near him. She is trapped on this planet in this meaningless mission pretending to be someone she isn't. It is wearing her down, she can feel it start to overtake her and she has to... shut it off just like Mara does. ]
(In the next few mornings, I will meet you on the roof for your training.)
[ That is what she has control over right now, and that is what she turns all of her focus towards. ]
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[ She thinks of when Rey had been trying to understand what was happening, how Ilde had let her peer into the fabric of her relationships. The scavenger had seen Kylo Ren in that brief, vibrating, little vision but because it had been a vision of him quiet, soft, in need of humanity... she had not recognized him.
How was anyone meant to guess that there was a man underneath, one worth being loved? Not when he continued to show only teeth and hate.
This has all gotten terribly knotted terribly quickly, and Ilde's immense loneliness starts to hum, like the sound a deep cavern makes with the wind whispering through it. Anakin is dead. Angel is asleep. Ren is distant, threatening everyone who comes near him. She is trapped on this planet in this meaningless mission pretending to be someone she isn't. It is wearing her down, she can feel it start to overtake her and she has to... shut it off just like Mara does. ]
( In the next few mornings, I will meet you on the roof for your training. )
[ That is what she has control over right now, and that is what she turns all of her focus towards. ]